I have always been a “Romantic/Realist”….some would call that an oxy-moron. I call it balanced by the presence of His Holy Spirit in my life.
See…the little girl in me, wants to believe that there really is a “prince among men” around the corner. One that God has been preparing….one that knows the same “Papa” as I do…..one that loves Him more than life itself, more than he loves himself, more even than he would love me…and because of that, is then capable of loving me as God originally intended. Not perfect by any means, any more than I am perfect….but one who is accountable to One greater than himself. Ahhhhhh, my soul-mate!
In trying to come to terms with my more romantic side….I have had to press in as tightly as possible to my Papa’s Heart. Before pressing in……my romantic side felt silly….discredited even. The realist side to me always kept me grounded in the TRUTH…..no matter how easy or how hard it was to assimilate. But it took me much longer to trust the romantic side of me. Hence, I pressed into Papa’s Heart for His take on who I was at my core.
This is what He showed me. “It is I, who have put in you the very desires of your heart. When you are connected to Me, you can trust your romantic side. I made you to be ALL woman. In other words, able to be sweet, loving, nurturing, tender, jealous, strong, tough, wise, intelligent, crafty, hard working, long suffering, forgiving AND sexy. [Sexy is not something you put on display for all men to see, but something that is between you and your beloved alone.] There are as many facets to who you are as there are facets to Who created you. ”
“The romantic side of you, is capable of hoping for all things, believing for all things, fully engaged in fighting for what is worth holding out for, and fully able to enjoy 100% being a woman who is captivating and beautiful in ways that go beyond your outward beauty and adornments. The realist side of you is able to face disappointments and keep going, as well as capable of being discerning and wise in your choices. The realist side of you, keeps your head out of the clouds and your wits about you, when you are swimming with sharks. The realist side of you also enables you to bounce back time and again, because you draw your strength from Me.”
That being said, I have learned to embrace both sides of what makes me, ME! He has long ago given me permission to be who He created me to be, and now I have given myself permission to be who HE created me to be, with no apologies. I have become pretty comfortable in my own skin, so to speak.
What follows in the poem I write below is an out-pouring of my more romantic side. I have totally accepted my more romantic side…..while my realist side keeps my “flights of fancy” in check. Now mind you, I said “in check”, not obliterated.
The following poem was written to my future soul-mate. You are out there somewhere, I know. I have prayed for you, and entrusted you to my Papa who knows me intimately and longs to give me the desires of my Heart, because He put them there. He also knows you intimately, and is just as excited about giving you the desires of your heart. I have prayed for you, longed for you, ached for you, cried for you, delighted in you…long before our eyes have beheld and hearts have touched. You are worth holding out for……
DO YOU REALLY KNOW?
When you look deep into my eyes and see and value what others have missed…do you know how my heart leaps?
When you reach for my hand with full assurance of our tomorrows..do you know the confidence it instills?
When you speak my name as if it were a fine wine caressing your tongue…do you know I get a sense of my worth?
When you gently touch my cheek after speaking sweet words of endearment…do you know it warms me to my core?
When by your actions, you make me aware that my heart has a home in yours…do you know how SAFE that makes me feel?
When you lay your head next to my heart and just settle in…do you feel the swelling of my heart as my love enfolds you?
When I lean toward you and you draw me in with your heart as well as your embrace…do you know how undone I become?
When your lips gently touch mine in a moment of tenderness…do you sense my abandon as I lean into your kiss?
When you gently place your hand on the small of my back…do you know how absolutely protected I feel?
When you softly whisper in my ear, “I love you”…do you know there is no one I’d rather hear it from, apart from Jesus?
When we together, pour our hearts out to our Papa, and become transparent before Him…do you know it is His desire to give us what will delight our hearts?
So tell me, my love…..do you REALLY know the power you possess to bring out the woman of your dreams, in me?
Do you REALLY know???
Song of Solomon 5:16b, 6:3a, 8:6-7a – This is my beloved, and this is my friend. I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine. Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm; for love is as strong as death, jealousy as cruel as the grave; it’s flames are flames of fire, a most vehement flame. Many waters cannot quench love, nor can the floods drown it.